Stay Sane

These are six of the solid applications I have in my phone that keep me sane. This Battle Armor folder encourages, reminds and keeps me connected with the things over and beyond the visible. It helps answer puzzled questions in my head.

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My favorite is my HOLY BIBLE app, it’s my life map! I like that it’s so handy and not heavy to carry unlike the typical hard bound Bible. I find it subtle that I can highlight, bookmark and save verses that struck me the most. It has ready-to-read verse/chapter for the day, Bible in 1year/6months/1month reading. It also offers devotional plans of various kinds: for families, youth, men, women, couples and so much more. One2One is a an application tool I use for discipleship, it helps people deeply understand their relationship with Jesus. It personally helped me build a strong foundation with Him back when I was starting to get to know Him in year 2011. ODB or Our Daily Bread, Devotion and Solid Joys by John Piper are 3 of my favorite devotionals (for this year). ODB would try to relate you to modern life stories that would give the same thought/teaching about the Scriptures. Devotion nurtures me with lessons I can apply to my life, and sometimes will throw me questions to remind me of how my faith may be increased through my actions. It automatically buzzes me for my AM and PM reading. Solid Joys talks about deeply rooted truth about faith in Jesus, that will sometimes make me read the devotional twice to thoroughly understand it; I find it thought provoking and challenging on how far-deep-wide-long-great I shall go for the glory of the Son. It’s a pretty intense devotional. Nah, it’s intense devotional. Instapray is like a Twitter Social Media account for unlimited prayers and encouragements.

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. 2 Timothy 3:16-17

These applications are very important to me for His’ Word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path. I can imagine how much of a disaster my life would be now if I didn’t read, relied and obeyed everything the Bible has taught me for the past 3 1/2 years and counting. The Bible is treasure if we won’t deceive ourselves by merely listening to it, but if we will do what it says. For blessed are those who hear the word of God and obey it.

My life, the lives of the ones I love, this world, all these will pass away, but the Word of God won’t. (Matthew 24:35)

The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth. John 1:14

So yeah, His’ Word, and Jesus Himself is what’s keeping me sane in this insanely cray-cray world. Gees, I shall keep declaring this.

Caption It

The photos below were taken last month for LAE Swimwear (@laeswimwear) Summer 2015 Collection. Make up and styling done by: Lei Ponce, photographed by: Bella Morcen of The Creative People (@thecreativepeople_ph).

I’ll come up with a caption for every photo and share my thoughts on them.
IMG_4148“Prisoner”, sometimes I feel like I know the direction I want to take. I know that the narrow path is the right path. But I’d choose to be a prisoner inside my comfort zone, fearful of failure, intimidated by the world, discouraged for me to move in an unpredictable and uncontrollable ways. I have so much fears crippling in my heart, like what if I lose my faith, what if God doesn’t answer my prayers, what if I back slide? The fears imprison me. I’ve been like this since I was a child. In my elementary days I would always have a class recitation moment where in the teacher would ask a question and I’d feel like I know the answer but I wouldn’t raise my hand because I’m scared it might not be the right answer, so I’d settle to being silent and not be corrected, then one of my classmates would be called by the teacher and utter the answer that’s in my head, and it’s right, and I would regret not taking the risk of answering. I don’t want to be a prisoner to my fears anymore. I want to be strong and courageous, not afraid or terrified of anything. I want to always believe that the Lord goes with me, and whether I fail to be right or not, He will never leave nor forsake me.
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“Doubts” are products of lack of trust, and trust is something that we work on for our doubts to go away and for us to have joy inside out. I think the best way to eliminate doubts is through faith, because faith is believing that the things you may not see at the moment may occur one day. It’s being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you do not see. James 1:5-8 says: If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. Ouch! This is very evident to me, when I doubt I become double-minded, unstable and indecisive of what I should do. I don’t want to be doubtful. I want to believe in faith that all the Lord’s promises will come to pass. 
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“Over thinking” I’m guilty of this for I have the usual tendency to over analyze things. I can’t seem to grasp fully that I shall not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, I shall present my requests to God, that He will not put me to shame, that my labor for Him isn’t in vain. In whatever event I may encounter, I shall allow the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, to guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Transcend=go beyond the range or limits=exceed=beat=outshine -> this is the kind of peace I want.
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I want to turn from evil and do good, to seek “peace” and pursue it. I know I can make as much plans as I want for my life, and there’s nothing wrong with planning. What makes it wrong is when I over dwell on the planning and forget the sole purpose of all my plans. Many are the plans I have in my heart, but it will always be His’ purpose that will prevail. Attaining my goals will only be possible if I keep His’ peace that is beyond anything I’m conscious of, anything that I will ever be able to understand. And even if I get to the point where in I have already attained “some” of the promises I dreamed of having, even if I get to a level of intense maturity, I will never be bright enough, I will never be victorious enough for I must constantly be reminded that my life exists not for the matter of achieving my goals and having all my plans fulfilled. I do exist for the purpose of the One who puts me into existence, to stay at peace and satisfied in Him. In this world, I will never get to the place where I want to be for my human flesh will always be hungry for more, but God offered me a better option, it’s not wanting, but being. Pursuing peace is being peace, pursuing success is choosing to be successful right now, pursuing love is being love itself today, everyday.
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And with all these I speak “freedom”. I may or may not attain what I envision my life to be, I may be good enough, or may never be enough. I may be fearful, doubtful and anxious. My flesh and my heart may fail, but it doesn’t really matter, for I can freely live in the truth that He is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. The Lord will always be after my heart’s condition. He is the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end of anything that ever existed, that exists and that are yet to come to existence in this planet. That truth alone shall lead me to freedom, to not fear, not doubt and not worry. For He’s got me, He loves me packaged with all my flaws and imperfections. Always have, always will.
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His’ love for me is like the lyrics of the song White Flag by Dido:
I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it where’s the sense in that?
I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we wereI will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
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His’ love for me never fails, never gives up and never runs out.

Begin Again

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Hi! I’d like to begin this blog with this promise:

Isaiah 43:18-19

18 “But forget all that—
    it is nothing compared to what I am going to do.
19 For I am about to do something new.
    See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make a pathway through the wilderness.
    I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.

I am on the process of forgetting about the former things, the past victories, past achievements, even the past hurts, past traumas, anything good and bad about the past. Forgive me for giving vague descriptions at the moment. I am trying to forget, so no more thorough disclosures. (Thank you for understanding. Wait, who am I talking to?) Anyway, I’ll be honest. I, myself do not know where exactly this “starting-over-again” blogging will take me, but I’d like to believe that the Lord has more beautiful things to do with my life as I go on with it with Him as my guide.

I like the idea that He will create something out of this blog of nothingness in and through me, the events, people, places and things I will encounter. He will produce something nice out of my indefiniteness. Exciting. Okay, you’re not convinced. Exciting! Better? (Seriously, who am I talking to?)

This blog is dedicated to my future self, my self who is deeply rooted in the Lord, my unassuming self, my secure self, my whole self, my humble, gentle and kind self. So yeah, I may just be talking to myself right now, the self the Lord promised me to be. The self that doesn’t highlight on herself but on what the Lord has done to herself. Apart from Him, I’m all rubbish. So might as well stay as close to Him as possible.

Let the journey of BEING STILL and TRUSTING THAT HE IS GOD begin.

Let us see where no pressure takes us…

Love XX Ria