Dear False Lover


Dear False Lover,

Hi. I’ll try to explain this nicest way possible. First, let me go straight to my request — that you keep your distance from me. Let’s be away from each other because there’s a lot of reasons why we would not want to make our paths cross. We are a waste of each other’s time. We don’t complement each other. We pull each other down. We are clearly not meant to be so why in the world will we still put so much effort to something that’s going nowhere? Let’s not be after temporary pleasure just because we’re bored and feeling lonely. I’m begging you to stay away because relationship is my weakness, you don’t want me to be messing up my life, right? You wouldn’t want to see me unproductive, miserably tangled to you and desperately begging that you love me the way I want to be loved. We don’t want to be hurting each other. I don’t want to keep feeling insecure because of the random women you follow on Instagram, especially the ones in bikinis. I can’t argue about that anymore. And your sneaky private messages to other women, it’s exhausting and draining. I can’t change you. Maybe we really have different standards, which validates it more that we are not meant to be. 

Don’t try to call me, don’t pretend you got wrong send with your text messages. Don’t like my social media posts because it affects me. We could just block each other, I think that’ll make us both easily move on. 

I don’t have time to mess up my life. I have my family and friends and the people who need my attention the most. I don’t want to hurt you, anyone and I don’t want to get hurt too, not anymore. I become selfish when I think of you, I focus on myself and how I’ll please you, how you’ll adore and notice me. It sucks. It’s not my duty to pursue you. Love doesn’t work that way.

Don’t try to justify that you’re the right one for me. You’re not. Love doesn’t lie, it doesn’t make you feel less valued, it doesn’t rush, it’s not kept in the dark, it’s not just you and I, it advances people’s lives and inspires many. Ours doesn’t. It’s always a struggle trying to keep up with how you want us to be. I always try to be in control too, inorganic. I don’t have peace and joy. Where’s the Lord’s blessing right there?  

I hope your life goes well, that you don’t hurt any woman whether intentionally or unconsciously. Don’t get yourself hurt too. May you have the consistent integrity to pursue Christ not just by words, but through actions. May you learn to make a stand for a woman, singular, just one, the one you will courageously love and spend the rest of your life with.

With me, I’ll try my best to do the same. I’ll improve my life and enjoy being single until God’s Best comes. I’ll embrace my solo season, won’t be flirting and dating around. I’ll keep my guard up. And I begin right now. 

Farewell to you. Jesus loves you.

Sincerely,
(Insert Name)

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