Yes. That was my initial reaction when I first heard from my mom that my younger sisters, the twins are taking huge dramatic decisions in their own separate lives. A little background, they both just turned 25 last June, they’re a bit young for these kinds of circumstances (well, for me). Days after their birthday, the first news my mom popped to our chat group was Elo’s pregnancy. I was shocked and worried because she’s not married with her fiancé yet. I initially wanted to talk to her, nag, get mad, total outburst of emotion cause I was very frustrated. But I had to control my self, I just cried in my room instead, called and spoke to Ela. We prayed and dedicated the baby to Jesus. Few weeks later I was on the phone with Mama and she brought up and asked me more than twice if I already got to talk with Ela about her plans. I irritatingly replied to my mom that her plan is to come back to Alabama and be with our family in a month (she’s currently in Georgia with her fiancé for about 2years). And then Mama revealed to me that Ela changed her decision, her fiancé, Dylan proposed to her again after not fulfilling his promise of marrying my sister right when he took her to Georgia, and she said yes to the proposal. He got my parents’ blessings too. I was sad a minute after I found out. It felt like everything we prayed for on her life situation was thrown away. But there was a sudden switch of emotion in my chest as my mom continually explained it to me, thank God.
Next thought that came in my head was: who am I to judge my sisters? I’ve disappointed my parents too in a lot of ways, I was even worse than the two. That moment, I felt like I was the goody-good older brother in the Parable of the Lost Son. Becoming angry and complaining in my head about my parents’ acceptance on the twins’ plans. Check out Luke 15:28. Mama even mentioned that Ela was scared to tell me. So I had to pause and thoroughly think about my stand and check my heart so I won’t be quarreling with my sisters when I call them.
Let’s segue for a bit: I began my walk with Jesus months after the twins left the Philippines to be with our family in the USA, imagine now how I was to them as an older sister. I was an awful one. When they were still in the Philippines, more than 5years ago, I didn’t really play the role of an “ATE” to them. We’d always fight, they’d see my tantrums with my former boyfriend and they’d get really irritated at me, there was even a time that I took drugs in front of them, and I’d encourage them to smoke, drink and party. Why am I bringing this up? Truth is the root of my frustration wasn’t cause of their decisions but because I thought things would’ve been different if I was a Christlike sister to them back in the days. That really saddened me.
Here’s what I learned though: Isaiah 43:18-19 says “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” The least I shall put my attention on is the past and the negative stuff. I shall not condemn myself, neither my sisters. I know that everything has consequences and we cannot skip that, God is just and must punish sin and He remains gracious and loving at the same time. Again, I shall not underestimate how He can and will work in the hearts and lives of my sisters, and my entire family. We all are a work in progress.
Right now, I try to look at the bright side of it: that they both have someone to love and pursue them for as long as they live. Proverbs 18:22 He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD.💜 That instead of being anxious I may just be more prayerful: for the baby to be healthy and the marriage to flourish. What’s also nice is that their soon to be husbands, my brothers-in-law seem to love them well. Well, we will all continually pray for that. And for Elo and Ela also to be prepared for family and married life — with Jesus as their guide and in the center of their family. Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. I was able to talk with Ela and congratulated her. The wedding is on August and we are all excited. I also got to message Elo, prayed for the baby. She’s giving birth on December and we are even more excited. I sincerely felt that it was peaceful doing it. I also think my sisters are delighted with our family’s support.
Thank You, Lord for the forgiveness of our sins and for the gift of life and marriage. I above pray that we can all love, fear and obey you at the same time that you may be glorified truthfully and mightily in our lives. Entrusting my family to you. Love you! Xx