Giiirl, so ano na? Sisisihin mo nanaman that guy for leaving you. You’ll try to cut yourself again? Or replace him with someone new to be able to forget? You’ll tell your friends how painful it is. Or go on the prideful end, book a flight somewhere in the world pretending you’re okay on your Instagram posts and you got everything handled pero yung totoo durog na durog ka na. You’ve been warned, but you did not listen. Ayan tuloy, you’re back in that loop again!
Sa start pa lang wala ka ng peace, you knew it was wrong, you felt it but you reasoned with it. You wrestled with God about it. Lord, baka pwede na ‘to. Lord, I can probably change him. Lord, ako na bahala dito, tagal na ng waiting game I’m settling for this one at the moment. Lord, friends lang naman. Talaga lang ah, friends? Pero deep inside you knew you were falsely in love and you were already hearing that still small voice telling you clearly: NO, HINDI YAN, HE’S NOT GOD’S BEST FOR YOU. Ehh ang tigas ng ulo mo. You come up with reasons to keep the relationship everyday, hanep you would even quote the Bible to back up your baluktot decisions. Girl, didn’t you forget that Satan also quoted the scripture to Jesus? Ano baaa.
Okay, don’t get me wrong hindi kita cinocondemn, I’m just reminding you of your heart and how fragile and easily tempted it is. Nakalimutan mo na ba almost similar din yung pain mo with the guy prior to that one? That’s why you really have to guard your heart beh! Pagod na ako to see how lugmok and emo you are, I’m sure pagod na pagod ka na din. You know you’re not ready for a relationship, for a man, for that is not really what you need. Ang keylangan mo is to rekindle your relationship with Christ, He’s the Man you need. Bumalik ka na please. Maawa ka sa sarili mo and sa mga taong tunay na nagmamahal sayo.
Dati super on fire ka kay Jesus, ngayon hindi ka na nagrereply when you get invited to go to church or Bible study. Again, alam mo that you are not yet ready. Try mo lang magpapursue kay Jesus ulit! Mahilig ka magmahal diba, try mo sa kanya ipour-out lahat ng pagmamahal mo. Carireen mo na si Lord. Diba nga His’ plans for you are good, pleasing and perfect? Don’t you like that package deal? Matalino ka naman so gets mo na ‘to, balik ka na sa Kanya.
And wag mo na sisihin anyone, repent for your sins, humble yourself, God will forgive you naman e. Pero please don’t get stuck to the point na sa repenting period ka nalang forever and you condemn yourself na. Sis, love ka ni Lord. Intense! Alam Nya when you are ready and when you are not so wag ka ng feelingera na kaya mo ihandle your life. Cause hindi talaga. Listen to Him. Fall in love with Jesus again. Sya nalang Boyfriend mo. One day ibibigay Nya sayo yung pak na pak na God’s Best mo, ganern! Pero for now, kay Lord ka nalang muna. Keri?
Your Ate Girl in Christ 😉