The Unmarried Wife Aftermath 

I’ve been reserving my thoughts on adultery for a book I wanted to write in the future that I haven’t even drafted yet. But cause I watched such an impactful movie last night, it could no longer wait. Forget about the book. This isn’t a movie review. This is my piece, not out of research, but out of a bold experience. First, let me state that falling in love with a married man was the dumbest, most selfish decision I did, most unloving path I chose, most painful event that ever happened in my life. This proved how filthy and sinful I was, and how much I needed Christ to take over every part of my being. I was so lost, so insecure, so stupid.

I thought I already knew Christ when it happened. I thought I was already leading people to Him. I was so defensive thinking I wasn’t doing anything wrong. But it unfolded right before my eyes, seeing people in pain and confused because of my hardheadedness,  and deep in my core I did not have joy & peace. It took me months not being able to sleep well, I’d wake up in the middle of the night being hunted by the thought, the TRUTH rather. “Adultery is a sin, it’s a trap, it’s a curse, get out of it.” But I was stubborn, wrestling with God and defending my situation to Him over and over again, and I’d call myself a “mature” Christian then, what a shame! I’d ask for signs. I’d always land on Bible verses telling me to let go, but I wouldn’t. It was so tough. I felt like I was being the ultimate hypocrite for proclaiming the Gospel and not living out His’ 7th commandment: THOU SHALL NOT COMMIT ADULTERY. I battled hard with the Truth, fought so hard, it left me tired & empty.

Until God’s GRACE came to pull me out of  my sin. He sent people who courageously rebuked and reminded me of my worth in the Him. There were literally a lot of them who prayed and petitioned to Him for me. He’d talk to me through my Bible reading, church services, even podcasts and worship songs. He persistently tells me to surrender, that He has greater and way better plans for me than I had for myself. Again, my plans were very selfish. This blog is an understatement of how Christ, my Lord and Savior miraculously worked in my life on this matter. He pulled me out of sin, pulled me out of adultery. And I couldn’t thank Him enough for the genuine freedom and love that I experience now through Him and the right people He brought to my life to appreciate the unceasing love He has for me through them.

This goes to you who find it so hard to let go, you may be in a situation similar with my past sin, or you have something/anything else that you believe in your heart God’s telling you to let go of but you couldn’t. I will not lie to you, the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak, and I know how hard it is. But I beg you, your future is at stake here, just let go. It may not make sense at first, but just let go. It hurts so badly, but let go. God didn’t die for you only to live in a distorted and deceptive love promoted by the world. Surrendering is hard but it will be worth it. Hold on to your faith, to the Gospel, and the only absolute truth. What God has put together, let no man separate. Leave before it’s too late, or even if you feel like it’s too late already, leave anyway. Because God will never bless a relationship He didn’t orchestrate. All His’ plans are GOOD, PLEASING and PERFECT. Choose to obey, choose His’ Master Plan. The hurt, you will be able to endure it because He will be with you, you’re not in that alone, He will be your comfort and strength as you go through the process of letting go, asking for forgiveness, healing, and forgiving yourself. He will never leave nor forsake you. Like He did to me, like He always do.

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans6:23


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Brace For Impact

Today is November 6, and I’m making a pact not to post this blog unless I’m already sure that I am graduating, that I’ll get my wings and become a full-pledged flight attendant. 

On my previous blog I wrote about how real and serious the struggle is on the process of becoming a cabin crew: Career Tweak. Some of you may think why I’m making such a big deal out of this, Meehn, BECAUSE IT IS A MASSIVE DEAL.😭 Days after I lost in my Bb. Pilipinas 2016 journey I wrote God a letter on the qualities I’d request for the future career He has for me. I never thought this one was it, because I even declared that time that I will never become a flight attendant. That was because of the fear I had in me of failing again; cause back in 2013 I already applied for PAL and failed during the final written exam. I was scared to fail again, like I’m not used to it. But for some gracious reason I still submitted my resume, and to cut the long story short, I’m here now, almost done with my training. What makes it even more favorable is that most of the qualities of the career I requested and wrote on my letter for God, so far, are the exact qualities I see in PAL. No joke!!! 😭 

I prayed for a job with ‘smooth’ transportation, apparently I’m gonna have to ride a car/uber to work; and there’s transportation allowance!😉 I literally also requested for a job that will make me travel the world, do we need to elaborate on this?😆 A job where He’d grant me a mentor who’ll become a friend to me; Sir Patrick De Leon, my trainer, is such a nice & fatherlike-friend to me and my classmates, answered prayer! I prayed also that I will learn to love my job naturally. To be honest, I am the laziest person I know, but by God’s Grace, I’m beginning to enjoy customer service, I am amazed myself on how I could stand and smile at people consistently even if some won’t smile back at ‘cha. Hehe.😅 Another quality of the job I wanted is that I will learn to value and take care of it without valuing it above Jesus in my life, I’d rather die a bum than lose my faith in Him for whatever career that isn’t from Him. So far, PAL brought me closer to the new avenues of Christ’s character. So far, I see peace and feel joy in my heart being here.😌 The testimonies of the senior cabin crews and pursers of PAL excites and encourages me to grow old productively in the company. I know, too early to tell. Well, let’s see!☺️

So why is my title brace for impact? Because no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no human mind has conceived — the amazing plans that the Lord has for the aviation industry, on how He’ll make an impact and how He’ll be known here. Let’s keep this an open secret, who says I’m here to be a flight attendant? Well, of course I must and will still do my duties, don’t get me wrong on that.✌🏻️ But ultimately, here is my open secret: I’m here, not only to serve passengers, but above all to fly until the whole world knows His’ Name. Literally. 
 
But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be My witnesses both in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and even to the remotest and uttermost part of the earth. Acts 1:8


So yeah, my brand new job description: Serving Christ 35,000 feet above the planet Earth, on ground and wherever in the Universe He takes me. Brace for impact. 😉

PS Here’s a photo of the Victorious 25 Cabin Crews of ICCT 16-12 aka the World Changers! Fly with you soon! Congrats to us. To God be all the glory! 💜✈️✝️