What God taught me through my Medina-India pairing was the most important part of my 4day duty. He taught me that true Christianity, true love knows no favouritism. One may be gifted with so much skills and talents in winning the world, but when one doesn’t know love, he/she gains nothing. My heart was so bad, so ugly, and I thank Him for revealing that to me.
Recently, I’d always pray for Him to teach me how to love like He does. He taught me that through my India flight, where my faith was really tested. The lavatory was very dirty, poop in the toilet, used tissue on the floor, most of the passengers were old and they didn’t know how to flush the toilet, my jump seat literally smelled like pee, only to find out that some passengers would urinate on the floor in the lavatory. I was rude. I was impolite. I was only nice to the passengers when we were already about to deplane. But even that niceness was selfishness, because I was only excited to rest.
When I got to the hotel in Medina, I was exhausted and I’d ask God: what are you teaching me today? I was really clueless and wondering that day, ano nga ba? Until my sister in Christ, Dia called me and ask how my flight was. Boom! It all came out that moment. I had to repent. Ang baho ng heart ko and ang kapal ng mukha ko to judge. I pray the Lord changes me. How dare I think that God sends me around the world to use me for His glory when I can’t plainly respect & love the elders? It was then that I realized na hindi pa ako marunong magmahal like Jesus Christ. Ang sad diba. 😢
I want to learn how to love like Him. I want to be selfless. Yung tipong whether I fly to Europe, or Asia, or Middle East or anywhere in the world, no matter how I’m treated by the passengers, no matter how physically exhausting the job may be, mabaho man or malinis man or madumi man yung lavatory, by grace, I’d simply love. Rich, poor, white, black, brown, whatever. I just don’t want to be a racist. I want to love the way Jesus does. Walang pinipili. Walang favouritism.
My brothers, do not show favoritism as you hold on to the faith in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ. For example, a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and dressed in fine clothes, and a poor man dressed in dirty clothes also comes in. If you look with favor on the man wearing the fine clothes and say, “Sit here in a good place,” and yet you say to the poor man, “Stand over there,” or, “Sit here on the floor by my footstool,” haven’t you discriminated among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts?
I have a lot to learn. I’m really disgusted at my heart. Thank God for mercy, for forgiveness. In reality, kung tutuusin, I’m also just like a poop in this world, cause of my sinfulness, but Christ loved me. I pray that alone motivates me to love each time I fly. Who am I to mistreat people? Loooord, change me please!!! Enable me to love like You.