Hele sa Hiwagang Hapis

  
Walong oras yung pelikulang pinanood ko, hindi pwedeng wala akong maramdaman. Ano bang pakay ng mga taong gumawa nun? Bakit ba nila ginawa yun? Seryoso, walong oras, hindi naman nila siguro gustong aksayahin lang ang bawat segundong ginugol ng mga manonood, feeling ko it wasn’t mere marketing strategy, or hindi din sinadyang gamitin si John Lloyd and Piolo para lang kumita at panoorin ‘to ng madla, dapat may purpose, may malalim na dahilan. Pakiramdam ko meron naman.

Hindi na ako magpapaligoy-ligoy pa, mabilis lang ‘to gusto ko lang ilabas. I won’t forget this film, at ang desire ng direktor, sa palagay ko na makamit natin ang tunay na kalayaan. Freedom is in us, it is up to us. Tayo ang bahala kung lalabanan natin ng galit ang galit, ng kadimonyohan ang dimonyo, ng mali ang mali. Pero siguradong hindi tayo magtatagumpay kung yun ang pakay natin. Nakita kong nanaig ang pagmamahal at some point sa movie, kapatawaran, awa, pagkalinga, these are actually Filipino characteristics na makikita pa din natin hanggang sa kasalukuyang panahon. Pero totoo din ang sinabi ni Gregoria de Jesus, hindi ko maalala ang exact words but the idea is: kasamaan ng pagkatao ng tao, masama tayo by nature, sakim, mapaglamang sa kapwa, kaya keylangan nating magbago, keylangan natin si Hesus para baguhin ang kaibuturan ng puso nating madumi. S’ya lang naman ang may kakayahang gawin yun.

Sabi ng Pari kay Isagani, iayos o itama ng nakababatang henerasyon ang mga maling desisyon ng matatanda, dito ako sobrang tinamaan. Kung titingnan mo ang Pilipinas ngayon marami naman talagang baluktot na kaganapan, madami pa ding mga kababaihan ang ginagahasa, korupsyon, dahas at kamatayan ay hindi lubusang napapawi. Kahit sa aking sariling pamilya, nakikita ko ang resulta ng mga maling desisyon na nagawa ng mga magulang ko, pati ng mga Tito at Tita ko. Dito pa lang minumulat na ng Panginoon ang mga mata ko na tanging ang paraan Nya lamang ang mananaig, na tanging pagsunod sa Kanyang utos at salita ang maghahari. Ang tanong, willing ba ako to pursue His’ path? Willing ba tayo na magpagamit para sa tunay na kalayaan? Hindi yung pabebe at pagpapacute lang. Willing ba ako? Willing ba tayo? Gaano kalaki ang desire natin para sugpuin at patayin ang karahasan sa mundo? Gaano natin nais na mailagay sa tama ang lahat? 

Sapagka’t ang kabayaran ng kasalanan ay kamatayan; datapuwa’t ang kaloob na walang bayad ng Dios ay buhay na walang hanggan kay Cristo Jesus na Panginoon natin. -Romans 6:23

Mabuhay ang Pilipinas. Mabubuhay ang Pilipinas. 

Tomorrowland

tomorrowland-pin-from-trailer

“Can we fix it? I get things are bad but what are we doing to fix it?” – – – This very line from the movie Tomorrowland is what causes this entry to come to life.

Just when I am about to give up the planned dreams in my cranium, there’ll be some reawakening prearranged in the spiritual realm… And He know exactly where to get everything back on track, in the movie house, with my popcorn and Mountain Dew. How clever.

That scene right there when Frank Walker (George Clooney) and Casey Newton (Britt Robertson) were about to send these robokids to Earth to look for dreamers makes me wonder if I will deserve a pin if I was in the movie. Am I still a dreamer?

I don’t know what the future holds. Or maybe I do, I’m just too sluggish to believe again, allowing myself to go with life’s discouragements, and not believing in the impossible anymore. I’ve welcomed hopelessness, allowed myself to feel defeated. All because of emotions and ego. But I can’t seem to turn away from the BUT’s I have in my head which He ingrained, for sure.

But, but I am in a mission impossible, impossible for me to do apart from the Lord’s grace, impossible to happen for people I tell it to, they even think I’m crazy, but He makes the impossible possible, that’s His’ hobby. So maybe, I will never be able to convince myself enough that it’s going to happen, but I just have to ‘GO’, like I used to, because it will happen. God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called. And only if I’ll continue, only if I won’t give up, if I’ll keep pursuing the narrow path, only then will I take part for this world to be saved. Woah woah woah. You (I’m) are talking vague again. And He says, it’s not vague, it’s Biblical, He came to change the world, and I’m privileged to have this holy burden of proclaiming Jesus as the answer to all troubles we have in this planet. So it’s a fact, a massive fact, which cannot be fathomed by any human mind.

Another guilt-tripping but. But what about your loved ones? If you abandon the mission, what about your family, friends, and colleagues’ salvation? Who will talk to them about His’ redemptive love? Who will validate it to them? People are waiting to be tapped. So am I qualified? Shall I keep dreaming?

Yes, because there’s no other way. He’s the only way. There’s only One Team Jesus, so It’s either I am for Him or I am against Him. In a clearer context, it’s either I dream or I dream on. I shall go for the Dream Team! Fine. Things are bad. Fine. We (Father, Son, Holy Ghost and I) will do something to fix it. Fine. I will keep doing what I’m called to do.

Now, where do I launch?

You launch where you are.

You’re exactly where you need to be.

Keep dreaming.

The future begins now.

Tomorrowland exists.

After these things the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision, saying, “Do not fear, Abram, I am a shield to you; Your reward shall be very great.” Genesis 15:1