Alter Ego

If only I could get You activated all the time, I would. That means 24/7 strength, endurance, power, persistence. I’d be immovable, unshakeable, unbreakable. Always able to resist temptation, stable and on the right direction. 
If I’m not You, I’m a weakling. I’d be this paralyzed and shocked lady once again. Or some loser gullibly running after misleading sights, incapable of maneuvering towards the light. That’s why I want to keep on being You, cause without You, damn I am a lost sheep, a prodigal daughter, an infant – tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming.

I could be You. I could be consistent at it. It takes work, it takes action, a step forward and a leap of faith. It takes OBEDIENCE. I hope to be You. Just get inside of me, will you? HOLY GHOST, I need You. I want You. I want to understand You more. I am desperate for You.

Crucially and expectantly waiting. XX


Almost Over

She was afraid he would inflict her pain again.

She didn’t know him but she trusted him.

Along with that is the liberty for him to hurt her.


He was never allured by any woman since then.

She was the last woman he hurt, she was the last person he lied to.

It dawned in him, he sinned.


She was the last sacrifice, the last one to carry the burden.

And it was the last time for her to go through it.

She’s healing now, that’s for sure.

The season is almost over.


He is forgiven. He is loved, still loved.

He will realize every impact of what he’s done, but he’s forgiven.

He has pain too.

And it’s almost over.


They’ve moved on.