DEAR TAZIC 🖤

Hindi ako makatulog, hindi ako matutulog unless malabas ko ang nararamdaman ko at malaman ng buong mundo kung gaano ka ka-dakila. Hindi pa ako pinapanganak, yaya ka na ng pamilya ko. Chubby ka pa dati, kasi ikaw palagi ang kumakaen ng tira naming magkakapatid, taga-ubos ng gulay, kasi hindi kami mahilig sa gulay nila kambal. Pinanganak si Paul, ikaw pa din ang naging yaya nya. Every time na magbibiro ka na lalayas ka na, iiyak kaming lahat, hahabulin ka namin hanggang sa gate ng Eastside. Memorized mo ang birthdays naming magkakapatid, pati relatives namin randomly ireremind mo kami na kaarawan nila at tatanongin mo kung na-greet na namin sila. Wala kang palya, Ate Tas!

Pumunta sa USA sila Mama and Papa more than 10years ago, ikaw na ang tumayong magulang ko dito sa Pinas. Kung may isang taong pinaka-nakakakilala sa akin, ikaw yun. Ikaw ang nagtitiyaga sa katamaran at kadamutan ko, ikaw ang sumasalo sa sama ng loob at init ng ulo ko sa mga bagay-bagay na walang katuturan. Ikaw ang nag-comfort sakin noong iniwan ako ng ex-boyfriend ko 6years ago, sinamahan mo ako sa mga impulsive/biglaang decisions ko. Yung nagka-dengue ako 2years ago, ikaw nagdala sa akin sa ospital at nag-alaga. Palagi mo akong binibilhan ng Jollibee every month kapag sumisweldo ka. Palagi mo akong pinapautang sa tindahan mo noong mga panahong unemployed ako. Palagi kang nandyan, palagi. Pero sorry Ate Tas cause I take your presence for granted, dahil hindi ko napapahalagahan ang pagmamahal mo sa akin. Ang dami mong ginawang kabutihan, hindi ka na nga nag-asawa, kami na ang naging pamilya mo. 

Ang prayer ko ay sana gumaling at lumakas ka na. Mawala ng ang sakit ng ulo mo, kumaen ka ng healthy and ng tama para hindi na ma-trigger ang diabetes mo. Jesus is your healer, Ate Tas! Go and be healed na dahil mag-movie date tayo soon, manonood tayo ng KathNiel, and I’ll bring you to Salad Stop, masarap ang gulay nila doon. 

I love you, Ate Tas! Jesus loves you so much! You are healed, in Christ’s Mighty Name. 💞

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Struggle Is Real: devil steals, Jesus Heals 

Sin begins in the head, I agree, I extremely agree. Sin begins as an idea brought to life. Sin begins with doubt, with insecurity, with pride. I’ve been sinning heavily in my head lately, and I’d like to share it now because I don’t want to struggle with lies and fearfully keep it to myself. Expose your sin!!! I want to get rid of this state because I’m very sure those ugly thoughts are no good, it would’ve trapped me to deleteriousness  like it did before. 

For the past 2weeks, I find myself “prospecting” for a potential boyfriend, I know it’s embarrassing and it’s an ugly feeling which probably birthed because I’ve been watching love story stuff lately and I wanted those romantic scenes for my life too. But my heart wasn’t in place, I wanted love wrongly and there came my mind thinking “Lord, pwede na ‘to, he’s kinda cute.” asking “Lord, could he be the one?” My gosh!  This is the least thing I want to think of and WORRY about, but they were lingering in my head! 😭 I caught myself sinning again on this aspect. And it’s my weakness. 

This usually happens when I don’t allot time reading the Bible & praying, and when I’m not surrounded with my family of believers. Lately, I don’t really get to go church and fellowship with my Christian friends. It’s been mostly about work. So I lost track, lost security. It’s amazing that my devotions lately would emphasize a lot about security. It’s what I’ve actually been praying for: to be so secured in Christ that I won’t feel the need of having someone to take care of me not out of pride but simply out of a hear fully satisfied, secured and content with the love I get from Above, from Him. Well, we’ll get there, by God’s grace. But I have to expose and confess this for now so I’ll get my reward in full.

6years single, 1year not dating, and Valentine’s Day is coming. Does my life suck? I’m very very excited as I share this. Last 2 weeks has been a roller coaster ride in my head. I’ve dealt with emotions I haven’t felt in a long time. These are emotions I don’t really like, willing spirit & weak flesh: being attracted at a non-Christian, flirting, compromising, negotiating with God in my head, asking “Lord, could he be the one?”. I never thought I could still actually feel all these. I panicked, (but I think) it was a good kind of panicking cause since I wasn’t feeling peace, I had to call Steffi and Issa, my spiritual leader/friends. I confessed what I was going through and had them pray for me. 

False love makes me out of focus, makes me insecure and self centered, false love makes me very irrational, makes me forget my responsibilities. I forgot I was charging my powerbank the other week because of a guy (I though) I liked. I had a flight to Cebu and it totally didn’t cross my mind to unplug it because I was distracted. Look, that doesn’t seem to make such a big deal to some, but it is to me, cause it’s a symptom already. I hope you don’t get the wrong impression on this, I just really really really wanna be preserved & reserved for my God’s Best. Bible says we have to be careful and sober-minded with our decision making. That moment made me backtrack to all the unworthy thigs I did in the name of FALSE love. Goosebumps! 

Eventually, God answers. Could that someone really be the one? And He clearly showed me a big NO. I began to see that the guy doesn’t seem to match the things in my prayer list. It’s good when you keep a non-negotiable list. It sets the standards, it gets your mind and heart back in place. Praise God for I am more discerning now, and I already get to fight my thoughts. Praise God for friends to pray with and His’ powerful Word that would speak gently yet firmly to me. He assured me in Psalm 121 that He will not allow my foot to slip. He knows I’m weak at this area, and He just wanted me to humble myself and ask for help. He is my Protector and He won’t slumber in guiding & getting me out of trouble. He will protect my life now and forever. 

2 of things to remind us SINGLES this commencing Valentine’s Season and always: 

1) Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, GUARD YOUR HEART, for everything you do flows from it. – Beshy, this is a serious deal. I used to think that tiny sins in my head don’t really matter, but these itsy-bitsy bad ideas led me to huge troubles then. Guarding your heart is an action verb, effort! Stay away from sin, choose your thoughts, confess it to someone who can pray for you. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, when I had those bad thoughts the other week I totally lost my focus, no peace, that’s what the enemy does.  Jesus came that we may have life, and have it abundantly – John 10: 10. It practically felt like Christ fought for me during the two weeks of struggling. He swiftly answered my critical questions. Again, my non-negotiable list on my “God’s Best” helps a lot, it has kept me on standards. Make your own list too! It also made me realize that I really am still worldly in a lot of ways cause I’d get attracted to someone that doesn’t meet what I pray for. That’s what I pray to be changed now! So yeah, it takes deliberate effort to guard your heart.

2) Colossians 3:2 SET YOUR MIND on the things above, not on the things that are on earth. | Romans 8:5-7 For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so. — Peace is everything! Only Jesus can give it! If you don’t have peace, think again! Don’t be scared assessing yourself and questioning your thoughts. 

“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. I and the Father are one.” -Jesus



Note To Self: You will never perish, no one will snatch you out of Christ’s  hand. May you always find security and fullness of love in Him. GB is yet to come. For now, savor the life of being single and freely, peacefully, joyfully centered in His’ will. 💞 😉  

2 Months Married

To my job. Yes, married to my job. Don’t worry, I’m not idolizing this career. That’s one thing I prayed for, that He grants me a job I won’t value above Him in my life. In case it happens, might as well take it away. I don’t want anything anymore, or even anyone to be my priority more than the relationship I have with Jesus. That would be exhausting.

I call it marriage because I believe a Christ-centered marriage doesn’t contradict or overpower God in your life, and it points people to His glory. A Christ-orchestrated-marriage is a glorious thing, it is savored with blessings and favor and peace. It also comes with challenges, with learning what to unlearn, what to get rid off to make the marriage work out, and acquiring certain qualities that will help the marriage flourish. A Christ-centered marriage, I also believe won’t go through divorce/annulment/separation. It is ever persevering and pressing on to work out, to get better.

My first two months at work were perfectly imperfect. I realized I have so much to learn. I’ve been checked 3x by cabin safety managers on my first month and it felt like all my boo-boo’s piled up and it caused me so much frustrations. These are some of the things I learned though: 1) I had to ACCEPT that I have so much to work on, I can’t just cry it out, I gotta work it it out. Exert an effort, do something to help myself get better; because faith without action is dead. In James 2:24 it says that a person is justified by works and not by faith alone. If I want excellence, I must not be complacent, I must work. 2Thessalonians 3:10 says “If anyone isn’t willing to work, he should not eat.” 2) I’m still adjusting, my gosh I’ve only been “married” for two months. I can’t be too “OC-hard” on myself. I should be grateful for the pointers I’m getting, because it gives me all the chances to get better NOW. No discipline seems enjoyable at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it yields the fruit of peace and righteousness to those who have been trained by it. Hebrews 12:11 3) I won’t give up on my marriage. He won’t give me anything I can’t handle. My flesh and my heart fails: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. -Psalm 73:26 

In a marriage, counseling is also important. I’m glad and blessed that He orchestrated flight schedules with people to encourage me, give constructive criticisms and teach me matters to help me improve at work. (Divine appointments!) The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice. Proverbs 12:15 I’m guilty for being a fool at some point, not wanting to accept that there are things that I have to work on with. People won’t notice a mistake and tell you more than twice if it doesn’t exist. I’m convicted. I have to change — for the better. 

Honestly, I’m challenged at my job. There are perks, yes, free travels, sustenance of food and comfortable place to stay in. But I don’t want to focus on the perks, I want to be good. I want to glorify Him with how I perform. I want to change, be transformed for this marriage to work out. Pray with me. 

Let’s pray for each other. May our careers give Him glory. 

Let the favor of the Lord our God be on us; establish for us the work of our hands– establish the work of our hands! Psalm 90:17

The LORD will grant you a blessing on your storehouses and on everything you do; He will bless you in the land the LORD your God is giving you. Deuteronomy 28:8



An Open Letter to my Baby Sister

Dear V,

Hi. You know I would always claim it, that you actually are my sister from another mother. Even if it was literally a “job” for me to take care of you then, it didn’t feel like it. I owned the title of being your personal assistant & manager — extended to being your mentor, leader, ate, and I didn’t have to get paid for that. 

Remember when we were struggling to book you modeling gigs/shows then? And now you get unlimitted offers, left and right. But that wasn’t really the highlight of our time together. Let me refresh your mind for a bit! It was us being each other’s church buddy. Friday youth service, Sunday services, One-2-One sessions, waiting on the line to get a cab and we didn’t really care even if it was taking forever cause we had so much to talk about and so much to thank Him for. Those were just few the many, and I’ll always cherish them. 

I liked the depth of your desires to find answers to your theological questions, that some I had a hard time answering already lol. I’m sorry for the times you probably needed someone to talk to and I wasn’t there. I was having my own struggles. But please keep in mind that I’ll forever be a big sister to you no matter where He allows you to go. That’s a promise. Let me know when I can call, okay? Let me know when I can go pick you up.

I love you, Vanessa. Jesus loves you above all. Don’t ever forget that. 

Sincerely,

Ria Xx

PS May you always take this verse with you wherever you may be, that whenever life gets confusing, you have a solid foundation to hold on to, and you’ll never be lost. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–His good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2💞


Choosing Christ is worth it. Wait on Him. 

Xenia in Pampanga 

Xenia is the name of the hotel I’m staying in at Clark, Pampanga. According to Wikipedia: Xenia is the ancient Greek concept of hospitality, the generosity and courtesy shown to those who are far from home and/or associates of the person bestowing guest-friendship.

Xenia is the exact same thing I’ve experienced here in Pampanga when our kind, beautiful inside-out (you can tell from her countenance) and hospitable Purser, Ma’am Ella Hizon treated us for lunch at Everybody’s Cafe, the home of authentic Kapampangan Cusine. We were too hungry that I wasn’t able to take photos of the food anymore. I had garlic shrimp and fish while my crewmates ate 🐸 frogs and crickets (eww lol).😋
After having lunch, Purser Ella welcomed us to their beautiful heritage home in the city of San Fernando. It’s sooo lovely and sooo neat.😭 I want a home like this too one day. 

Another Xenia experience I had was when I met the cutest hospitable dog, Penny! My gosh. I’m not kidding, she’s the first and only dog who is able to lick my face like this. I’m not really much into pets but Penny is an exception, she’s just as nice as her masters (Ma’am Ella and her family). I even got to have a photo shoot with her in their classic-classy-clean bathroom. 

Oh Penny!!! I love and miss you already!!!😿 If only I could take you home. 
These are some of the many nice things happening in my life lately. Mind you, that’s just a few hours of the many lovely days. God is so good. I pray that He continues to pour out His blessings of joy&serenity to the lives of His hospitable servants, like Ma’am Ella. Bible says in Hebrews 13:2 not  to neglect to show hospitality to strangers. I also pray that I would increase in love through hospitality. 

I’m ending this blog with these wise words of Peter: His divine power has given us everything required for life and godliness through the knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and goodness. By these He has given us very great and precious promises, so that through them you may share in the divine nature, escaping the corruption that is in the world because of evil desires. For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with goodness, goodness with knowledge, knowledge with self-control, self-control with endurance, endurance with godliness, godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they will keep you from being useless or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.2Peter 1:3-8

Let’s persevere in acquiring these qualities. By God’s grace, may we live out this faith we have pleasing the Lord by being kind to one another. Have a blessed week ahead people of Jesus! Xx 

Can’t Sleep | Davao

I’m flying early later, need to be up and get ready at 2am, it’s almost 2, and I haven’t slept yet. Buy why? Must be the Durian Coffee I tried for the first time this afternoon when we went to Paradise Beach Resort, Samal Island. Kasi naman hindi talaga ako coffee drinker, but Captain Leo insisted that I try it, eh masarap — kaya I finished the entire cup.🙈
I love being in this place. It’s my 3rd time to visit Davao and I always love the feels I get whenever I’m here. Funny cause I’d always go here for ‘work’ (judged for a pageant screening 2years ago, did a charity visit a year ago, and now my first layover as a flight attendant) but being here always gives me a vacation and relaxation vibe. The last time I was here, (last year) I met Mayor Duterte back when he didn’t want to run for presidency yet, glad to be one of the people who campaigned and prayed for him. Talking about praying for my country’s leader/s. I learned that each time I pray for a leader, I shouldn’t be placing my trust to the person I’m praying for, but to trust what my God can do in and through him that he may be able to do his’ duties well. Bible says put your trust not on man, but on God. My president, our country’s president is apparently flawed, imperfect, just like everyone else, just like you and I. And we can only truly pray that he gets wiser, healthier, humbler as God uses him to lead our nation. In  1Timothy 2:1-2 it says: I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness. So whether we like Duterte or not, let’s pray for him, that every work of his hands may only contribute to our country’s progressive growth, may encourage every Filipino to be better individuals, and may give glory to our Father. So instead of ranting, let’s pray.😋

Again, we don’t trust men, we trust God’s work in men. Anti-idol, anti-disappointment, anti-stress. Kasi nga we were saved by grace, through faith, it’s the gift of God, not by our works so that nobody can boast. That’s why WE’RE LIVING THE LIGHT THAT ISN’T OURS, I heard this earlier as part of the lyrics in a random Christian channel I was listening to on Spotify. And it makes so much sense to me. All that we are, all a result of Grace.  
O sya, malapit na mag-2am, praying for GRACE now. I need strength, power & excellence at work later. 

Forever thankful & blessed by Christ, Riri💜 

The Unmarried Wife Aftermath 

I’ve been reserving my thoughts on adultery for a book I wanted to write in the future that I haven’t even drafted yet. But cause I watched such an impactful movie last night, it could no longer wait. Forget about the book. This isn’t a movie review. This is my piece, not out of research, but out of a bold experience. First, let me state that falling in love with a married man was the dumbest, most selfish decision I did, most unloving path I chose, most painful event that ever happened in my life. This proved how filthy and sinful I was, and how much I needed Christ to take over every part of my being. I was so lost, so insecure, so stupid.

I thought I already knew Christ when it happened. I thought I was already leading people to Him. I was so defensive thinking I wasn’t doing anything wrong. But it unfolded right before my eyes, seeing people in pain and confused because of my hardheadedness,  and deep in my core I did not have joy & peace. It took me months not being able to sleep well, I’d wake up in the middle of the night being hunted by the thought, the TRUTH rather. “Adultery is a sin, it’s a trap, it’s a curse, get out of it.” But I was stubborn, wrestling with God and defending my situation to Him over and over again, and I’d call myself a “mature” Christian then, what a shame! I’d ask for signs. I’d always land on Bible verses telling me to let go, but I wouldn’t. It was so tough. I felt like I was being the ultimate hypocrite for proclaiming the Gospel and not living out His’ 7th commandment: THOU SHALL NOT COMMIT ADULTERY. I battled hard with the Truth, fought so hard, it left me tired & empty.

Until God’s GRACE came to pull me out of  my sin. He sent people who courageously rebuked and reminded me of my worth in the Him. There were literally a lot of them who prayed and petitioned to Him for me. He’d talk to me through my Bible reading, church services, even podcasts and worship songs. He persistently tells me to surrender, that He has greater and way better plans for me than I had for myself. Again, my plans were very selfish. This blog is an understatement of how Christ, my Lord and Savior miraculously worked in my life on this matter. He pulled me out of sin, pulled me out of adultery. And I couldn’t thank Him enough for the genuine freedom and love that I experience now through Him and the right people He brought to my life to appreciate the unceasing love He has for me through them.

This goes to you who find it so hard to let go, you may be in a situation similar with my past sin, or you have something/anything else that you believe in your heart God’s telling you to let go of but you couldn’t. I will not lie to you, the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak, and I know how hard it is. But I beg you, your future is at stake here, just let go. It may not make sense at first, but just let go. It hurts so badly, but let go. God didn’t die for you only to live in a distorted and deceptive love promoted by the world. Surrendering is hard but it will be worth it. Hold on to your faith, to the Gospel, and the only absolute truth. What God has put together, let no man separate. Leave before it’s too late, or even if you feel like it’s too late already, leave anyway. Because God will never bless a relationship He didn’t orchestrate. All His’ plans are GOOD, PLEASING and PERFECT. Choose to obey, choose His’ Master Plan. The hurt, you will be able to endure it because He will be with you, you’re not in that alone, He will be your comfort and strength as you go through the process of letting go, asking for forgiveness, healing, and forgiving yourself. He will never leave nor forsake you. Like He did to me, like He always do.

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans6:23


Brace For Impact

Today is November 6, and I’m making a pact not to post this blog unless I’m already sure that I am graduating, that I’ll get my wings and become a full-pledged flight attendant. 

On my previous blog I wrote about how real and serious the struggle is on the process of becoming a cabin crew: Career Tweak. Some of you may think why I’m making such a big deal out of this, Meehn, BECAUSE IT IS A MASSIVE DEAL.😭 Days after I lost in my Bb. Pilipinas 2016 journey I wrote God a letter on the qualities I’d request for the future career He has for me. I never thought this one was it, because I even declared that time that I will never become a flight attendant. That was because of the fear I had in me of failing again; cause back in 2013 I already applied for PAL and failed during the final written exam. I was scared to fail again, like I’m not used to it. But for some gracious reason I still submitted my resume, and to cut the long story short, I’m here now, almost done with my training. What makes it even more favorable is that most of the qualities of the career I requested and wrote on my letter for God, so far, are the exact qualities I see in PAL. No joke!!! 😭 

I prayed for a job with ‘smooth’ transportation, apparently I’m gonna have to ride a car/uber to work; and there’s transportation allowance!😉 I literally also requested for a job that will make me travel the world, do we need to elaborate on this?😆 A job where He’d grant me a mentor who’ll become a friend to me; Sir Patrick De Leon, my trainer, is such a nice & fatherlike-friend to me and my classmates, answered prayer! I prayed also that I will learn to love my job naturally. To be honest, I am the laziest person I know, but by God’s Grace, I’m beginning to enjoy customer service, I am amazed myself on how I could stand and smile at people consistently even if some won’t smile back at ‘cha. Hehe.😅 Another quality of the job I wanted is that I will learn to value and take care of it without valuing it above Jesus in my life, I’d rather die a bum than lose my faith in Him for whatever career that isn’t from Him. So far, PAL brought me closer to the new avenues of Christ’s character. So far, I see peace and feel joy in my heart being here.😌 The testimonies of the senior cabin crews and pursers of PAL excites and encourages me to grow old productively in the company. I know, too early to tell. Well, let’s see!☺️

So why is my title brace for impact? Because no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no human mind has conceived — the amazing plans that the Lord has for the aviation industry, on how He’ll make an impact and how He’ll be known here. Let’s keep this an open secret, who says I’m here to be a flight attendant? Well, of course I must and will still do my duties, don’t get me wrong on that.✌🏻️ But ultimately, here is my open secret: I’m here, not only to serve passengers, but above all to fly until the whole world knows His’ Name. Literally. 
 
But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be My witnesses both in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and even to the remotest and uttermost part of the earth. Acts 1:8


So yeah, my brand new job description: Serving Christ 35,000 feet above the planet Earth, on ground and wherever in the Universe He takes me. Brace for impact. 😉

PS Here’s a photo of the Victorious 25 Cabin Crews of ICCT 16-12 aka the World Changers! Fly with you soon! Congrats to us. To God be all the glory! 💜✈️✝️

Career Tweak 

Woah. It’s been a while! Ended my 8th week training a little early today for this new job I’m applying for. Finally got to allot time for this little vitamin of mine: writing! Yes, I’m still applying for “the job” as a flight attendant because I’m still uncertain on my status here (anything could happen, depending on the Lord’s will), I can’t really say I’m already employed and an official future jetsetter (lol) unless I graduate and get my “wings” aka my nameplate. Brand new to me cause I have zero knowledge on the Aviation industry. I only see the surface of the ‘works’ each time I’d ride an aircraft, and amuse myself seeing the flight attendants blow the mouth tubes of the life vest as they smile the entire time they’re doing their safety demo. And now that I’m already training to work like them, I’d say that being an FA is a real deal, a dead serious job. I’m serious. 😭🙂

In a span of 8 weeks I’ve done and learned things I never though I could do. I learned how to swim and float in an 8feet pool (my gosh!!!), learned four swimming strokes (freestyle, elementary backstroke, breaststroke and sidestroke; intense ‘to never in my life did I imagine myself learning how to swim), became the class secretary and graciously listen to instructions that I may relay to my classmates (gosh I’m bad at listening, but once again: GRACE changes everything). I also learned how to study hard — oh yes, this is something I never did back in college down to my kindergarten years. My first 4-5weeks at training were such a struggle. There were so many adjustments when it comes to my study habits because I never had one. I wasn’t a fan of school, but now, at 26, I learned to love it! Who wouldn’t love learning how to do CPR, assisting a pregnant woman give birth and do first aid rescue procedures? My favorite were our aircraft tours and emergency drills. I feel like I’m in an acting class when I do the drills. But Lord, please no emergency in real life! Please-eyy!!! 

There were also a bunch of practical matters that I learned. 1) To not compare my classmates competence with mine. 2) To be diligent in studying and have the integrity, faith without action is dead! If I’d pray to pass my exams, I shall do my part and study.3) We are a team, my classmates and I, we are a family and I can ask them for help when I need it, and vice verse. I’m no longer in a pageant where competition is crazy. I’m in a team. So yeah, teamwork works!😉

Again, I’m not going to assume that this is already the career the Lord has for me. If you’d ask me now, I’d say that I am beginning to like it. But I haven’t even started doing the actual “service” yet, only Christ’s grace that will fully confirm that this really is it. I’ll find out in a month. Will probably confirm on my next blog.😘

Many are the plans in a man’s heart but it’s the Lord’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21 — And I pray for a heart fully surrendered to His’ purpose. I only want a career where I can glorify and honor Him in every way. One that won’t make me forget Him. If this one isn’t it then I don’t mind losing it. But if it is the one, then praise God! We’ll see. 
His will be done, my will be gone! Be back in a month! Xoxo  

Season Of Rest: Almost Over

It’s been 4 months of rest since my Bb. Pilipinas 2016 journey. I’ve had a few modeling gigs as I wait for my ‘regular job’ but I believe the ultimate career I did the past months is being the Lord’s servant (I’m not taking even a pinch of glory on that, this is only and all by His grace). I can’t believe this season is about to end. But before He transitions my life to a new chapter, let me lay down my gratitude piece. 

Yes, this season’s almost done. Four months of unlimited ministry works, prayers, witnessing lives coming to Jesus and getting baptized, fellowshipping, worshipping. Oh nooo… I don’t want to cry. ='( But I’m getting really emotional now cause I’m gonna miss all these. Not that I won’t have/do it anymore, but I’m kind of preparing myself now on the changes that may occur. I don’t really know what the future brings as I begin my brand new week “at work” next week. And to be honest, I’m scared, I’d get anxious. But the Lord commands not to be anxious about anything, and pray about everything instead. Please pray for me too. =( 

On a brighter note, let me count my blessings! There’s literally massive things I wanna thank the Lord for, let me summarize it a bit. 1) I thank Him for the grandest gift He gave me this year: THE FELLOWSHIP – each and every being in it, they know who they are. Their faith and love for Jesus encourages me to fall in love with Him even more. 

2) I thank Him for the many events He allowed me to go to and be part of to experience Him in different avenues: Hillsong Youth Revival concert, Marlann & Christine’s Victory Weekend, True Life Retreat, Nick Vujicic talk, Upperroom Worship Manila Retreat, Nueva Ecija trip with my DGroup, #YesHeIs Gospel Video shoot, Fellowlympics and mooore! 
My seasons of rest has never never been this action-packed and fruitful! It’s overwhelming to be given this glorious opportunity to see lives transform, friendships flourish and people from different walks of life coming to know the goodness of Jesus. I never imagined Him answering my prayers this way. Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; His greatness no one can fathom. (Psalm 145:3) 


To my coming season: I may be weak, but my Lord is strong. I may be foolish, but my Lord is wise. I cannot, He can. So bring it on! My Lord will fight for me anyway. Got my eyes on You, Jesus. “Remain in Me and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in Me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in Me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing.” (John 15:4-5) 💜✝